I failed to be a cookie monster

I had 2 missions in mind before coming to Japan:
1) To get better at badminton
2) To complete JLPT level 1

Right now... I feel like I am failing both missions.
When did badminton become so depressing... >< Every week I go to badminton practice just to feel my skills and fitness degrading. I know it's my own fault that I don't train enough here... but I honestly don't have enough time.
If I spend more time on badminton, I don't have time to study. If I try to study at work, I can't do a good presentation for my paper, nor can I improve my current research results. If I spend all my time doing only 3 things: work, badminton and study, I feel like I am wasting my time here in Japan because I can do the other 3 things in Canada. Everything has a price and I just can't juggle all three without losing some. When I try to do too much, I end up doing worse in everything. I am sorry but I think I failed to be a cookie monster. *cry*

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Someone by the name of K. Hara must be the most egotistic person ever.. period.

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View of Mount Fuji from NTT 3rd flr
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Dawn: